Living with a monster 

Living with a monster is what having to control PTSD feels like to me. It’s an endless cycle of oppressing my demon to prevent all hell breaking loose.  The best way I can describe it is with a diagram, excuse my poor drawing skills: The picture shows my silhouette with a rip through my chest.Continue reading “Living with a monster “

2 days in Bangkok 

I had to get up at 4:30am on the Sunday morning to get a boat from Naifaru, Maldives to a domestic airport which would fly me to Male. The sea was extremely choppy which I embraced as a sort of roller coaster ride for about 10 mins before the constant soaring then crashing into theContinue reading “2 days in Bangkok “

Dreaming of insanity 

Apologies for the radio silence this week but this particular post I really struggled to write so it’s taken a while… Since being away the stress of travels has affected me in numerous ways, but after the first week and a half of being here insomnia has surprisingly resurfaced for a little while.  For aboutContinue reading “Dreaming of insanity “

I never dreamed I could feel so real 

Yesterday was a personal best for me emotionally and mentally. To cut a long story short we had to take our biggest turtle, Penny, to the only vet in the Maldives which was about a 2 hour speed boat journey away. The boat was brilliant fun and I got to see some awesome wildlife likeContinue reading “I never dreamed I could feel so real “

Speaking out – 3 ways it has affected me so far 

Before I boarded my first flight I did a quick post on Facebook to introduce all my connections to this blog. It wasn’t an easy decision which I had been chewing over for more than a week before deciding to go for it.  I must have typed and retyped it up in my notes aboutContinue reading “Speaking out – 3 ways it has affected me so far “